Weight / Size Update

OK, so I will now proceed to "spill the beans" if you will. I think almost every woman struggles with their self-esteem when having to "expose" their measurements or weight or dress size. There was a time, yes, a time before having children, when I too had issues with telling people a number. But, childbearing has done for me what nothing else ever could. It brought me to my most vulnerable state ever. It exposed every intimate area of my body and emotions to where nothing else could ever again phase my self-esteem and even woman hood. I have found I am who I am no matter what the number is or what someone thinks or says about it. And most of the time, people don't really even care. It's almost like women think they can't technically weigh that if they don't say it. Like once you tell someone you weigh in the 200's you suddenly become that number. The truth is, you aren't hiding anything! If you are overweight, people can see it. You are what you are, period. And you are who you are, no matter what you weigh. There is NOTHING that changes with the confession of your weight, other than perception and mainly only your own at that.

I remember going in to the Midwifes office for my appointments when I was pregnant with my last child. The routine was, when you got to the office you went and weighed yourself, and when you got into your check-up with the midwife you told her your weight. Well, she let me know at my first appointment that because most women are so self-conscience about their weight, I could just tell her either how many pounds I lost or gained at subsequent appointments. What? Like by saying my actual weight changed something? I didn't care, I was still that weight no matter what, and the midwife is going to do the math, so what's point? And I still tell you the same thing now. By telling the world how much you weigh changes NOTHING. You are still that weight, and people can see you, you aren't invisible. By speaking truth you awaken yourself to reality, so it can set in, so you can be moved to change it. I think women don't want to say a number cause they don't want to face facts. They don't want to accept that they have fallen that low beyond their own expectations for their lives. They want to keep their heads buried in the sand like an ostrich while the rest of the world can still see their asses! Man up. Accept reality, and then make reality fit into your expectations for your life. Take action, you can do it!

So, here's mine. My starting weight (last month when I began my road of no excuses) was 218. My waist was 47 inches. And my dress size was a whopping 20.

Today, with a month of results I now weigh 209 lbs, waist is 43 in., and I am in a size 18.

Your turn. If you are ready to make a change here is your chance to join in with me. Take your head out of the sand. Use this as motivation. What's your numbers?